The last family pic we had... clicked when Anup was about to fly for US (at IGI Airport). Not knowing that this wud be the last gud bye to him... not even the last thing we cud think of. Still remember he was so nervous on the day he had to go.. 29th Jan 2010.. Probably somewhere in his heart he didn't wanted to.. He was so partuclar about the luggage weight that he wud have interchanged things in it for some 15-20 times ... kabhie ek suitcase ka weight exceed kar jaata kabhie doosre ka... n we were like.... " just wake us up when u will be done with this weighing game"... I had never seen him so anxious before..
I remember him when he bade us that last gud bye... from the staff entry gate of the departure terminal... He came back especially after checking in his luggage to give his last glimpse to us...
n he sent his last sms to all of us... mummy, papa, lalit n me.... "i am about to fly..thank u for such a support..bbyee flying.." sent at 5.13 a.m. when he boarded his flight...
...Anup u indeed flew away...but so far off.. why my dear?? y have u punished all ur near n dear ones in such a way??
This sinking feeling of u not being around us has started getting stronger day by day..
u thanked us for giving u all the support ... Will u my dear not render ur support when v need it the most??
I regret two things the most now... firstly that we missed 6 & half months of ur life with us.... secondly though u wanted to come to India for a while to c Saavi, ur niece, but we didn't let u..thinking u wud unnecessarily be troubling urself by travelling so far off..
Though this regret is of no use now... but if u can please excuse us for nething that has troubled u ever bcoz of ur family... especially me... as i used to scold u a lot.. for not keeping ur room tidy, not keeping ur clothes in place... n million other things.. I am sorry for all that as i miss that untidiness the most now....
Ur absence has shaken our souls but we all pray that may ur soul rest in peace forever..
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Dear lalit whatever we may do we can never get him back . But through this blog you have kept his memories alive. It is really good to know that he had such a beautiful heart. solace lies now only in memories...
सुबह से कितनी बार इस ब्लाग पर आयी मगर नम आँखों से विदा होती रही। अनूप मैने कभी नही सोचा था कि तुम मेरी बेटी को और अपने परिवार को इतने आँसू दे जाओगे---- कभी नहीं--- आँसू किसी के भी हों आँखें नम हो जाती हैं लेकिन जब अपने बच्चों के हों तो दिल चीर कर रख देते हैं। --- मुदिता , ललित इतना ही कहूँगी कि इस तरह तडप तडप- कर अनूप के साथ भी न्याय नही कर रहे हो। वो सुख की नीन्द सोने गया है उसे मत जगाओ। कहते हैंन आत्मा कभी मरती नही! उसकी आत्मा भी मरी नही अपको रोते देख कर कितनी दुखी हो रही होगी। क्या उसे चैन नही लेने दोगे? खुद को सम्भालो बस। भगवान के आगे किसी का जोर नही। और नहीं बस और नहीं-----
If I see this snap now, and noticed anup particularly, somewhere in his eyes he knows that this is his last good bye... He was the only one looking upset.. Missing you brother. I was complete with you in my life. Take care of yourself wherever you are !!
whenever i see this pic my heart says anup is still in U.S. which make it more hard to believe the fact...
and even today in evening around 7 i wait for his call.
can't say/write any more....
anup i m missing you a lot.....
Always say SECOND LAST. The term LAST has some negative shades.
कौन सा पल जिन्दगी का आखिरी पल हो कोई नहीं जानता है और इस सत्य के साथ हमेशा जीना आना चाहिए लेकिन जिसका कुछ खोता है उसको कुछ समझ नहीं आता है. न कोई दर्शन और न शिक्षा. आत्मा बस उसी को खोजती रहती है, हर आहट पर, हट तस्वीर में और हर फ़ोन काल पर. शायद फिर से वापस मिल जाए. आप सभी लोगों के दुःख को समझ सकती हूँ, अनूप से जुड़े सभी लोगों से मेरी हार्दिक विनती है कि कुछ ऐसा कीजिये कि अनूप सिर्फ किताबों में ही नहीं बल्कि धरातल भी हमेशा याद किया जाये. कोई स्मारक संस्था , स्कूल या फिर चैरिटी.
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